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How to Maintain a Sexy Relationship After Having a Baby

Mamas, if you have a strong, beautiful relationship, nothing will shake that. If you’re in the wrong relationship, having a baby will force you to realize what’s right for you and what isn’t. Sometimes, the truth stings. True relationships bring happiness and peace and withstand money issues, career changes, illness, and having a baby. Parenthood doesn’t come with a manual and each day is a different adventure, but there’s so much beauty in becoming a parent. Some days are more chaotic and challenging than others, but this isn’t the dress rehearsal…this is the show. A bad day isn’t the end, and I know how hard it can be to feel sexy after a long day.

How do I keep the sexiness and passion alive in my relationship? It’s simple…we appreciate each other. We say thank you, I love you, I want you, I miss you, and I appreciate you. We are the same as we were prior to becoming parents and having Greyson has only brought us closer. There are moments that test us and days that feel overwhelming, but that’s the universe’s way of keeping a balance. We’ve been through a lot together and regardless of what we endure as a couple, I will always have his back. Sex and passion create allure in the best movies, stir up emotions when listening to our favorite songs, and keep us turning the pages when reading a good book, but the key to having a sexy relationship is much deeper than sex. Sometimes, as women, we would much rather cuddle, make-out, go to a romantic dinner, and flirt than have sex. We love sex, but it isn’t everything to us!

Mamas, being sexy with your partner starts with feeling good about yourself (feeling sexy and happy). If you’re feeling off about yourself nothing your partner does or says will bring passion to your relationship. Treat yourself to a new, date night outfit and go out for a romantic dinner with your love. Drink some wine, flirt, and laugh…just like you did when you first met your lover. Let your hair down and have some fun, mamas. Or, simply get your nails done, take a trip to the hair salon, or get a massage. Go for a relaxing walk, or try a stimulating yoga routine. I have the Daily Yoga app, which I pay yearly for, and there are amazing routines that only take up thirty minutes of my day. It’s so important to remind yourself that you deserve to feel sexy and beautiful…

There will be days postpartum when you feel different, upset, or stressed (don’t fear them) and it takes a little while to feel 100%. There may be a piece of clothing that doesn’t fit exactly right and your mood will fluctuate, but you’re not alone and there’s nothing wrong with you. Every mama deals with something postpartum. Trust me, I have bad days just like everyone else. No one prepares a woman for what postpartum is really like and most women aren’t open about their struggles after becoming a mom, because they’re afraid of being judged or feeling weak. Mamas, there is strength in owning not only your good days, but your bad days, too. If you’re truly struggling with getting through each day, you’re feeling depressed, or alone, consider talking to a therapist weekly. Do whatever feels right for you and never apologize for taking care of your mind, body, and soul.

Start making a list of what you love and what will make you feel sexy and happy! Ensure that each week is filled with a little me time. Also, if you’re feeling different postpartum be honest with your partner and don’t push them away. Again, if you have a strong relationship they will not run away from the dark days. Your love will be there for you (no matter how crazy you feel in your own head) and it’s comforting knowing you have a support system. I wish every mama a gorgeous weekend and a sexy Valentines Day!

Greyson’s Letter

Greyson, you’re officially two months old today! Two months ago, on December 8 I was laying in the hospital next to this amazing boy, falling in love. I love seeing you smile and listening to you “talk”. I love spending each day with you and never feeling alone, because I have you by my side. As I wrote this entry I thought about all of the hearts I broke along the way and the many times I had my heart broken. My love, nothing breaks like a heart. My advice to you when you’re older is to wait…wait for the right person, wait for the love that ignites your soul and makes you feel incredible, and wait to worry about the big stuff. Have fun with your friends and fall in love with life and who you are way before falling in love with another person. As humans we don’t like being alone, but you need to remember that you’re never alone. Life is messy and scary. There’s so much I cannot shade you from (I wish I could), but I will always be here to listen and to help you. I will never judge you, leave you, or make you feel stupid. Trust me, daddy and I have been through so much and with each challenge we’ve grown and learned.

I’m so lucky this year to have TWO valentines. I have you and daddy, which makes me the luckiest woman in the world. Who needs Cupid when I have you? I love you baby boy.

Xo

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A letter to my Man of Honor on his birthday

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Dear Danny,

I am so excited for you as you turn twenty-one! There is so much adventure and beauty ahead of you and I’ll always be there for you as your partner in crime, support system, therapist, and best friend. You are generous, brilliant, and funny, and you are without a doubt one of the finest people I know. I’m the luckiest gal in the world to have you as my best friend. We met in retail and as we stocked shelves on opposite sides of the store, we looked over at one another, standing on the top of two ladders, singing country songs to each other. We’re legitimately the same person and I love our memories and our friendship. I cannot thank you enough for being there for me through all of my adventures and life moments! You stood by my side and held my hand while I gave birth to my baby boy, Greyson…if that isn’t the definition of a best friend, I don’t know what is.

There was never a question in my mind that you were going to be my Man of Honor and I couldn’t tie the knot without you beside me. Thank you for helping me with details, keeping me sane, and for being there for me as I fell in love with my wedding dress. Whether we’re driving home from a night out (I’ll save those scandalous details for another time…lol) or having a bougie lunch at a gorgeous restaurant, I live for our moments. If you killed someone and needed me to help you dispose of the evidence, I’d be there in a heartbeat, with a shovel, of course, black heels and black gloves. I got you, boo. If you needed someone to lie for you and create an elaborate story, I’m your girl (duh, I’m a writer). I’ll always bring the alcohol if you bring the bad decisions. We’re the definition of partners in crime and we’re #friendshipgoals. If you ever needed a place to live, wherever I am is your home, too. You’re a huge part of me and the person I am. You know better than most that I went through a lot in my past and you were one of the first people who marked the start to my new chapter.

If I could give you any advice for your twenty-first year, it would be to enjoy each moment, even the trying ones. Work and goals are important, but as you get older you’ll realize that you’ll never look back and say “I wish I worked more”, but you could look back and wish you did more for you. As a mama and a fiancé, I can tell you that work and money isn’t everything and partying fades into simple moments spent with your loved ones. Always take time for yourself and don’t stress too much, because before you know it you’ll be in a completely different chapter. Your twenties are amazing, but they’re also complicated. You will change, grow, and learn. You will one day look back and realize you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be…trust. If you ever doubt yourself I will be here to remind you of how strong and resilient you are. If you need a moment away from the craziness of life I’m here to distract you. I’m wishing you the happiest of birthdays and a year filled with self-discovery and positive vibes. Remember, it all goes by in the blink of an eye, but every moment is valuable. I can’t wait to eat, drink, and be MARRIED. Xo

I love you 💙

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A letter to the father of my child

Andrew,

I feel as though I found out I was pregnant yesterday. I stood beside you, next to your truck and I announced that I was pregnant. I was anxious, scared, and excited. From the beginning you vowed to be there for me and our child no matter what and you promised to take care of us. With each passing day it became more real and you amazed me with your positivity and excitement. I’ll never forget the first ultrasound and seeing our baby for the first time, when he was just a peanut. I’ll never forget dressing up in blue lingerie and handing you a card to announce that we were having a baby boy. My pregnancy was a beautiful journey and although I do know that I could’ve done it alone, I’m so glad that I had you.

You’ve thanked me for giving you our perfect son, but I wouldn’t be where I am today without you. I wouldn’t be a mother if it wasn’t for you and our inspiring relationship. If you hadn’t been the man you are, I wouldn’t be sitting here writing you this letter. It takes two to create a child, but it also takes a true man to not only create a child, but to be a dad and a hero. You’re our hero, sweetheart. Some days are harder (and longer) than others and I know that you work really hard, but if you’re ever feeling worn out, or over it, just remember how much we admire you. We love you and need you, always.

You walk through the door at the end of the day and I smile so brightly, because it doesn’t feel like home without you. I cannot imagine sleeping at night without you cuddled beside me, or waking up and not having you here to start each day with. It’s not easy being a mom, but it’s the best job I’ll ever have; there will be moments when I feel stressed, tired, and overwhelmed, but I’m always grateful for you. I want you to know that it takes a remarkable man to stand by the woman he loves during a pregnancy and after, because becoming a mom is life-altering. You know how to handle me on my best and my worst days and you’ve already proven to me that you would be there for me through anything. I need you to know how much that means to me and that I will be by your side through everything…sickness, money issues, and life changes. I’m your best friend and partner in crime, no matter what. I chose you and I will never change my mind.

I know I’m not perfect and sometimes I feel alone, even though I have you, the best daddy in the world. As a mom you tend to feel as though you’re on an island and you live by a different set of rules that don’t apply to others. I spend all day, everyday as a mama and I always put you and Greyson first, which is in my eyes, a huge part of being an amazing mom. I’m sorry for the moments when I am angry, stressed, or sad, and for the tears. Sometimes I just need to cry and let it out, because some days aren’t as easy and beautiful as the rest. I can’t always explain to you how I’m feeling, which I know can be frustrating. I’m sorry that I don’t always look in the mirror and feel perfect, but thank you for always making me feel pretty, loved, and sexy. Thank you for smacking my ass, holding my hand, and constantly smiling at me. Thank you for caring for me, my heart, and Greyson.

I know we will go through so much as parents, but one day it will be just us again, in a quiet house, looking back at our life together. It won’t always be perfect and easy, but I promise to love you through every life stage. I don’t want to go to bed angry or sad, because life is too short and unpredictable. I will never let you leave the house without kissing you and telling you how much I love you. I will never end a phone call or send a text message without expressing my love for you, because you’re the most important part of my life.

Years from now, when we are sitting on the couch in our once busy, noisy home, watching a movie and drinking wine, we will look around at our framed, family photos and think back to when it was just you, me, and Greyson and I’ll thank you again…I’ll thank you for being the best husband and father, for never leaving, and for making me a mom. I’ll thank you for giving me the greatest gifts and for creating a life with me.

I love you and we are so lucky to have you. I appreciate you and everything you do, everything you are, and everything you aren’t. You’ll always be our Superman.

Love,

Lizzie 💗

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Living with Anxiety

I’ve lived with anxiety my entire life and as a teenager, it enveloped me. As I got older I became stronger and more resilient. As you grow you tend to worry less about the little things and you learn to appreciate each moment, even the struggles. I’ve learned to breathe through the trying moments and my anxiety no longer controls me, but it took me years to get to the place I am now. After I gave birth I had many moments of anxiety and tears, because becoming a mama is life-altering (and incredible). If you’re pregnant and feeling anxious about the unknown days ahead, don’t be afraid of motherhood. It’s unlike any other adventure you’ll ever embark on. There’s no sunset, mountaintop, or cityscape that can compare to the beauty of your baby learning and growing in front of you. Postpartum triggers every emotion and for the first couple of weeks, you’re lacking sleep and normalcy, which makes you feel a little crazy (ok…more than a little crazy). Before you know it your life has changed, but sleep returns and you find a new normal. I’m living the mommy life and a new, beautiful normal.

I understand how overwhelming and stressful it can be as a mama, especially if you’re doing it alone, or you’re alone during the day. I’m the queen of overthinking and if you live in that same kingdom than you know how easy it is to become your own worst enemy. It’s okay to leave a pile of wash until the next day or to take a break from cleaning. It’s important to take care of yourself during the day, despite being a busy mama. You need to care for your mind, body, and soul. Living with anxiety is a challenge, but it’s only as hard as you believe it to be. Light some candles, read a good, inspiring book, and let the smell of your favorite perfume linger. Surround yourself with beauty and what makes you feel calm. Drink a glass of wine and chat with your best friend, or go for a long drive and listen to your mood playlist.

I fall asleep next to my love, feeling safe and happy, but some mornings I still wake up feeling stressed, because there’s always something I need to accomplish. It’s hard to explain to those who don’t have anxiety what it feels like to suddenly feel unbelievably sad and vulnerable or to struggle with triggers. A trigger is something fairly simple that makes you feel overwhelmed with a certain emotion (sadness, anger, jealousy) and often a trigger takes you back to a moment you wish to forget. I had a panic attack for the first time in years the other night and it was awful; I felt as though I was paralyzed and it was triggered by something that in the moment, I was totally blind to. The next day though, the trigger became clear.

We all have a laundry list of things to handle and worry about during the day, but it’s not a race; you don’t have to deal with everything all at once, and nobody is free from stress. A person’s Instagram may be filled with sunshine and selfies, but that doesn’t mean that they don’t feel just as stressed as you. Stress finds all of us at our weakest moments and it affects everyone differently. Unfortunately, for those who have true anxiety, stress can be deadly. You need to remind yourself that you will accomplish your goals, complete your tasks, and handle your shit, at your own speed. You don’t have to do everything in a day or make yourself feel bad for taking a breather.

When you have anxiety it’s terrifying to not be in control, which I understand better than most. As a teenager, it used to kill me when I felt out of control, but as I got older I let go of the reins. I control what I can and I let go of what I can’t. I always make sure my space and my life are organized and pretty and that is my way of being in control. Life happens and each day is unpredictable, no matter how much we plan, worry, and stress. We can make as many lists as we want, but we have no idea what the day will bring. Isn’t that what makes life so exciting? Learn to feel excited rather than scared, my darlings.

Greyson’s Letter

Greyson, my love…you’re getting bigger and brighter every day and I’m so proud to be your mama. I have so much I wish to teach you and tell you as you get older, but one thing I need you to know is how to handle your emotions. Anger can be terrifying and it’s important to take a step back, breathe, and let go. I want you to always remember that you should never go to bed angry. You never know what tomorrow will bring and I hope you lay your head down every night and feel thankful and positive. Always look forward to the next day, babes. Pain as many before me have written, demands to be felt, but you’ll get through the cloudy days. I wish I could shield you from sadness and pain, but I can’t. Every moment in your life becomes a part of you and your story, which is why it’s so important to always be your most amazing self.

One day you’ll meet envy, trust, fear, anxiety, and the emotion which changes everything…love. Love is complicated, beautiful, and terrifying, but when you find the one worth loving, it’s everything. You’ll already know love by how much daddy and I love you and how much you love us back. It’s a level of love which cannot be measured, lost, or described. I want you to never settle in the future for anything less than the love daddy and I have for each other, and of course, for you. The love I have for you though, is unlike any other.

Xo

 

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This mama don’t mess

If you want a beautiful life and positive results you need to take out the trash and stay away from toxicity. Sadly, I know plenty of mamas who are driving down a dead end road, whether they’re wrapped up in unnecessary drama, or they’re lost in a toxic relationship. It makes me sad to see others drowning in chaos and to watch people make the same mistakes over and over again. It makes you wonder, why? Why doesn’t the woman who stays with the cheating boyfriend leave? Why does that friend of yours continue to connect with the wrong people? The questions are always easy to ask, but the answers are very rarely simple. Some stay with the wrong person because they’re scared, or they don’t have enough confidence to start over. Others are involved with the wrong people because they’re lost and lack a strong identity.

It’s a new year and it’s the perfect time to take a long, honest look in the mirror. The reflection will never be perfection, but you should feel proud of the person staring back at you. We all make mistakes, have flaws, and countless stories to tell after a few glasses of wine. I fought hard to become the woman I am today and the mama I’m lucky enough to be. Greyson is the best part of me and I will always make sure he’s surrounded by positivity (people and situations). Your vibe attracts your tribe.

I had dinner and drinks with Andrew and two of my very good friends, which is something I truly love. I love spending time with the people I love (my true few) and enjoying drinks and conversation. We had an amazing time laughing, joking around, and sharing stories with one another, but right before my friends were about to head home, a nasty, psychotic text appeared on my friend’s phone. I was in shock and confused when I read what was on the screen, but after realizing who sent the text message I wasn’t surprised. The person who sent it has hit below the belt plenty of times, with countless people (myself included) and they feed off of drama and negative situations. They’re also friends with another person who has created drama and messy situations in the past.

We all received other text messages and phone calls that night (and afterward) which were disgusting and immature, to say the absolute least. We moved forward and laughed it off, which is what adults do. I’m a mama and Andrew works so incredibly hard and is a daddy, and my friends have busy lives. None of us have time for high school drama or bad energy. This entire situation (the text messages, harassment, etc.) was caused by a mutual friend, who is close to the person who texted us that night. After all of this happened it reminded me of how adults (mamas in particular) should act (and react). It also bothered me for other reasons, such as…why do people connect with hate and drama? If you want drama in your life watch a movie or read a good book. I didn’t react that night…I moved on because my life is way too beautiful to be dragged down by negative bullshit. It makes me sad when I see people my age (and older) acting like fools and getting caught up in nonsense.

The mutual friend who created a negative situation is also a mama, but she’s living a life that is filled with toxicity. She is famous for surrounding herself with awful, unstable people and I truly believe she’s lost. I am not here to judge other people’s life choices, but when it affects your aura and those around you it’s time to take note and make changes. This person has come to me for advice in the past regarding her relationship, which is in my opinion very harmful, but there’s been no change and I feel bad. I’ve been through pain and I stayed with someone (longer than I should’ve) who caused a lot of drama and hurt in my life. I know what it’s like to feel lost and unsure, but there comes a point when enough is enough. As a mama, I couldn’t imagine being in that place, because Greyson needs a strong, confident, and happy mama to teach him, love him, and show him. As a parent, you need to stay away from those who cause harm and situations that create stress, because your actions will one day affect your child. Greyson will always look up to me and he will see very quickly that his parents don’t put up with anything. We don’t get involved in drama. This mama has no time for craziness.

I wanted to share that story with all of you because I think it’s so important to be the best person you can be at all times, and if you’re a mama surrounded by negativity and toxic people, it’s time to take out the trash. If you’re traveling down a dead end road it’s time to find an alternate route. You want your vibe to attract beauty and positive, mindful people who will uplift you and take you on gorgeous adventures. You want your child to be surrounded by light and love and to know what a healthy relationship and friendship looks like.

Greyson’s Letter

Baby boy, you’re a month old and I’m so proud of your tiny milestones. You can lift and keep your head up for longer periods of time, you’re stronger and have gained weight, and you’re continuing to delight us with your incredible personality. You look into my eyes and make noises and I know there is so much you wish to say. This blog entry was about surrounding yourself with the right people and the right moments, because life is fragile and we all deserve honesty, happiness, and love. I never want you to get wrapped up in drama or hate, because it can result in a lot of pain, loss, and regrets.

As your mama I work hard to show you true and meaningful relationships, from my relationship with your daddy, to my friendships with the ones who’ve been there for me through it all. I know you’re a baby and it will take some time for you to understand and comprehend who and what you’re around, but I’ll never put you in a negative situation. You’re so lucky…there are so many beautiful people around you who love you and are looking forward to getting to know you as you grow. My close friends adore you, as does my family, and Andrew’s family. You’ve changed my life and daddy’s and we’re thankful for you and the changes that you have brought. I love you Greyson. Xx

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Becoming the Energizer Bunny

I hope everyone had a gorgeous Christmas with lots of love and sparkle ✨ Happy New Year! As we say goodbye to 2018 and welcome yet another, new year emotions are exploding (the usual). We tend to reminisce, refresh, but also regret. I have no regrets…I’m engaged, a mama to the best boy in the world, and although my life is vastly different than it was this time last year, I wouldn’t change a thing. I am all for reminiscing and a refresh as we strut into 2019 (pull out your favorite pair of heels), but regrets are foolish. Life is too short, my darlings.

Greyson is three weeks old and he continues to inspire me. I want to remind any tired, overwhelmed mamas that a bad day doesn’t make you a bad mom. Bad days exist for everyone and can become heightened as a new, exhausted parent. We’re human and we have our moments, even as devoted mamas. Despite countless smiles, laughs, and memories, there are also times when we want to cry and scream. Days can be long, tiring, and trying, but it isn’t about the tough moments, it’s about how tough you are. I’ve become the Energizer Bunny and I want to help to inspire and motivate others…

I stay motivated, positive, and energized by doing what I love and loving what I do. I go for long walks with Greyson, which is an enjoyable, easy workout for me and it’s nice spending time outdoors with my baby. Remember to bundle your baby up and make the stroller a cozy, safe place for your kid(s) during the colder months. Fresh air is everything, though. The outdoors can cure a bad mood and stress; walking is therapeutic and one of the best ways to clear your head. Slip into a pair of sneakers and make a dedicated playlist.

As a writer and a blogger I have an outlet to get me through long nights and busy days (thank you words), but even if writing isn’t your thing, starting a journal is simple. Start writing about your day, even the struggles. You can write about whatever you’d like (even if it’s not about being a mama). Write a simple list if you aren’t able to think of anything else…make a list of current goals, cleaning/organizing endeavors, etc. You can take a break from your mommy life and write about something fun, crazy, or inspirational if you’re feeling up to it. A great way to become comfortable with writing daily is by reading. Reading and getting wrapped up in words will take you elsewhere, even if it’s just for an hour. Sometimes you need to escape and be somewhere else (mentally) for a little while and there’s nothing wrong with that.

As a new mama I nap and sleep as much as I can, but I think it’s so important to keep moving and to do as much as possible. I believe that accomplishing a lot during the day and staying motivated and moving (like the Energizer Bunny) helps to keep you feeling your best. It may be tiring being a mama, but it’s better to keep going and doing what we always did. Sleep is important, of course, but so is sticking to a normal, stable routine. I actually enjoy cleaning, organizing, and doing the same, simple tasks each day. I’ve always been a very organized, clean, and stable person. I have anxiety (always have) and I need organization in my life, especially now that I have Greyson. Add something fun to your normal, daily routine, like a day trip (with your baby), or a creative project, too. Have fun with a small home project that won’t overwhelm you, or drive somewhere beautiful.

It’s imperative not to forget about your much needed me time. I always make sure I have time at least once a month for a manicure and a pedicure, for example. Me time doesn’t have to revolve around being pampered…it can be alone time with a favorite movie and a glass of wine, or a shopping spree at your favorite store. Being a mama doesn’t mean you forget about yourself or your needs. You will have to learn to put someone else’s needs above your own, though. You may be hungry, but if your child needs food, they eat first. If you have to pee and your child needs something immediately, you better be able to hold it in. Again, motherhood is a balancing act and it’s all about multitasking and prioritizing. Your me time may have to wait until midnight or a moment when you have a little extra help, but don’t forget about you. Also, don’t feel guilty about having a drink by yourself, with your significant other, or your friends. I give you permission to unwind, mamas. Here’s to 2019…

Greyson’s Letter

Greyson, I’m excited for 2019 with you and your daddy. We’re getting married in May and I’m so happy that you’ll be there with us, because you’re our life. I know you’re just a baby, but one day you’ll understand just how much your daddy and mommy love one another. You’ll be able to see the way your daddy makes me feel and the way he cares for us. I’m a lucky woman to have him by my side and you’re the luckiest boy in the world to have him as your dad, and I always want you to grow up seeing what a true, beautiful relationship looks like.

As your mama my job is to love you, protect you, and to teach you. I will teach you many things, but one thing that I will teach you, which is immensely important is how to treat others. You’ll meet so many different types of people in your lifetime, but regardless of who you meet, remember to always be you. I want you to always be humble, sweet, and honest. I know you better than anyone, because I met you first.

You’re the light of my life and I know that you’ll be an incredible friend, brother, and partner. One of my jobs as your mama is to teach you how women deserve to be treated, and I know you’ll make someone so happy one day…you’ll make them feel lucky, loved, and grateful, just like daddy makes me feel. Everyone you meet has a story and deserves kindness, even if they are unable to show you the same level of respect. You’ll learn quickly who deserves a second chance and who you need to let go of (and stay away from). I know you’ll meet great people and friends, like the ones I have met over the years. It took me a long time to find your daddy, though. It took me twenty two years, but he was worth the wait, because he brought me you and an amazing life. My goal this year and each year to come is to take care of you and daddy and to help you become a gentleman, a fighter, and a survivor.

Life can be tough, but you’ll always be tougher. Happy New Year my love…thank you for giving me an amazing and unforgettable 2018. I wish you so much love and happiness, my beautiful boy.

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Strength and Sleepless Nights

Being a mother is finding fire and strength in yourself each day and battling fears you never thought you’d face. Before you become a mom your fears are immensely different and they only involve you. You worry about your own, personal finances, needs, wants, choices, insecurities, and mistakes. Once you start worrying about another life, things change. It’s one remarkable way to become selfless. You worry about issues that don’t exist, tiny struggles, distant thoughts, and unknown factors. You simply worry, because from the second you give birth and become a mom your only priority is to protect and love. I would kill someone for Greyson and for Andrew. They’ve both taught me the true meaning of unconditional love and I love them with every part of me. As a mama and a fiancé (soon to be wife), I view my role as a pretty, strong bookend. A bookend holds everything on the shelf together and that’s what I do and always wish to do. I want to be the one to take away the pain, piece things back together, and make everything easier.

I’m living and loving the mommy life and I’m so happy to be where I am, especially with Andrew by my side. I couldn’t have asked for a better partner ♥️ I’m always asked how I’m feeling and for those who know me they know I never stop. I’m constantly moving and now that I’m a mama, the movement continues, but at an insane rate. There are only more things for me to worry about, accomplish, and of course, enjoy with my son. Despite my motivation and positive attitude, don’t get it twisted…I’m tired. I do have to say though, each day gets easier. You simply embrace the exhaustion and move forward and at some point, you’re no longer tired. I mentioned in my first entry of The Greyson Diaries that I pulled many, drunken all-nighters and that I can handle anything. Yes, that is very true. This mama has lived. I’ve spent nights roaming around New York City until five am, drunk off of five martinis, and wearing eight-inch heels, but nothing compares to being a mama and taking care of a baby. By the way, any mom who says they aren’t tired is probably delusional from being tired. It’s an exhausting and incredibly rewarding job and the job doesn’t end when the sun sets. The job keeps going and you keep going.

For those currently dealing with sleepless nights I know it can be a lonely feeling, being awake at two am with a crying baby, even when your significant other is asleep in the other room. You may be without a significant other and in that case, you might really feel alone. You’re never alone though, my loves. I always say, if you’re feeling alone there are countless other people feeling the exact same way; if you and others are dealing with identical emotions you’re in the same place, whether you’re strangers or thousands of miles apart…you’re never alone.

Greyson is my little best friend, but it still feels lonely at times when I know everyone else in my life is fast asleep and I’m awake, watching whatever happens to be on tv, trying to soothe my angel and put him to bed. It’s important to cherish every moment, even the tiring, late nights. Luckily, as a writer, I’m used to staying up all night writing and thinking. Have a glass of wine, mamas and take a deep breath. As I write this entry Greyson is cuddled on my lap and it’s a little after midnight. Andrew is sleeping and I’ve been watching old, Christmas movies. If you’re up late and feeling a little lonely (and tired) put on a favorite movie (maybe a favorite Holiday film), or binge watch a tv show to entertain yourself. I don’t mind the sleepless nights because I know they won’t last forever, but Greyson will never be this little again. There will come a day when he will no longer cuddle and fall asleep on my chest, but regardless of what life stage Greyson’s in, he’ll always be my baby boy.

Many moms, like myself, are stay at home moms (at least for a time) and there are moments when our men truly don’t understand how much of a commitment it is. We wake up, after possibly only a few hours of sleep and we live for our kid(s). I’ve taken on my mama duties and the role as a housewife and it’s exhausting (I love it though). Some may think stay at home moms have it easy because they’re home, but it’s not an easy job. We are enveloped by a world that is wildly misunderstood…it isn’t an episode of Desperate Housewives. There’s no one stronger than a devoted parent, especially a mother. To all of the stay at home moms (and dads), you’re amazing. We’re amazing and we have the best job in the world.

Being a mother is finding strength regardless of how tired you are. If you keep that fire lit inside of you and remain positive (and healthy), you’ll get through anything and everything. As the bookend, I’ll remain strong and fierce for my family, always. Loving and caring for my boy and my man is my job and it’s a job without financial gain or promotions. It is a job with an incredible reward though and every morning I wake up feeling proud. Remember, it’s about the little things. As a mama, I truly appreciate the simple moments and the tiny victories. Greyson actually slept through the night for the first time this week and he’s only two weeks old, which makes me a very proud and happy mama.

Greyson’s Letter

Greyson,

You’re the one who made me a mom and I cannot thank you enough for changing my life. I may have another baby someday, but as my first born you hold a special place in my heart. You changed my world the second I found out I was pregnant. I can still feel you kicking me and sometimes I forget that I no longer have my baby bump. I brought you into this world and there is no greater feeling (I wish I could fully explain the feeling). You made me realize just how strong I am and I will never doubt myself or my strength, because of you. You’re my greatest accomplishment and daddy and I are truly amazed by you and your bright personality. I’m glad I had you at a young age and I’m so excited for our future adventures and for you to fall in love with life, just like I did. One day though, I will be older and I know that when I look back at my life story you’ll be one of the most beautiful chapters. I love you sweetheart.

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