Hi!

I know I have been the absolute worst at posting on my blog over the past year, but it has been one of the hardest years of my life. I didn’t feel creative enough to type up anything worth reading, but I’m feeling so much happier and lighter. I’m back! Did you miss me?

I want to take a moment to thank all of my amazing readers and followers who have followed me for years, despite my habit of not posting during trying times. Also, hi, and welcome to my new readers and followers. Somehow, I’ve had new followers over the past year and it blows my mind considering how bad I have been at posting, and how boring I’ve been on here (I appreciate the support). I promise to keep posting and keeping it interesting! I am going to continue with my most popular and favorite blog series, The Greyson Diaries & Coming Home. I will also post more personal, journal entries often. If there’s anything you want to read more of, please let me know!

Wow…what a year. I said goodbye to toxicity in my life, we moved, I had a beautiful baby girl who is now fourteen months old, Greyson is now FIVE (the little boy who was the reason behind me starting The Greyson Diaries on my blog back in 2018), we bought a camper, I cried (a lot), I also screamed (sometimes we just have to), and I’ve met new people who now mean the world to me. It has been a year filled with growth, heartache, and transformation. Despite all of the tears and challenges of the past year, I am happier and healthier as a person, a mama, and a wife. I’m stronger and more resilient. I know who I am, what I want, and what I don’t want. I’m also incredibly thankful for my close friends who have turned into family. My friends are amazing and have been my strength on my weakest days.

I wake up early every morning, inhaling the peace and quiet. I feel so grateful that I get to drink my cup of coffee in my pretty mug, wander out onto my front porch, and breathe without toxic people suffocating and controlling me. A year ago, we moved to get away from toxicity (yes, a toxic person) who constantly made Andrew and I feel trapped and depressed. It was a hard, emotional decision to make, but at the end of the day always remember that your happiness and peace are more important than anything else. Walking away from people and places that don’t bring us joy is never easy or simple, but life’s too short and too uncertain to be even a little bit unhappy. Do I still look back? Of course, I do, but I don’t regret walking away.

I am living for myself again, smiling more, working out, writing, reading, and living a healthy life. When you distance yourself from negativity, you glow differently. It’s hard to see the chaos and darkness when you’re still in the trenches because you’re just surviving in those moments. Once you’ve walked away you can then look back and think, “Wow…I lived that every day and I survived. I got out.”. I’ve been through a lot of trauma in my life, but being betrayed and emotionally tortured by someone I never thought could do that to me, was by far the most painful experience I’ve ever been through. There’s no ignoring the fact that pain changes you. I am not the same woman I was a year ago, but I respect who I’ve become. To anyone going through pain and trauma, you’re not alone and there’s light ahead of you.

On a lighter note, I have been gardening and buying plants excessively over the past month. You know you’re an adult when the most exciting part of your week, is going to the garden center to spend way too much money. I’ve also been going on hikes and walks as the weather warms up. I highly recommend buying some new plants, going on a pretty hike, and just spending some time outside. It’s good for your health and your soul. I’ve also been falling in love with reading and writing again. It’s so therapeutic to just sit and read or write, especially to clear your head. I will be working on posting my book recommendations here, soon.

I hope everyone has a beautiful weekend and remember, all you need in life is a pretty plant and a cup of good coffee. It’s the little things.

Xo.