A letter to the father of my child
I feel as though I found out I was pregnant yesterday. I stood beside you, next to your truck and I announced that I was pregnant. I was anxious, scared, and excited. From the beginning you vowed to be there for me and our child no matter what and you promised to take care of us. With each passing day it became more real and you amazed me with your positivity and excitement. I’ll never forget the first ultrasound and seeing our baby for the first time, when he was just a peanut. I’ll never forget dressing up in blue lingerie and handing you a card to announce that we were having a baby boy. My pregnancy was a beautiful journey and although I do know that I could’ve done it alone, I’m so glad that I had you.
You’ve thanked me for giving you our perfect son, but I wouldn’t be where I am today without you. I wouldn’t be a mother if it wasn’t for you and our inspiring relationship. If you hadn’t been the man you are, I wouldn’t be sitting here writing you this letter. It takes two to create a child, but it also takes a true man to not only create a child, but to be a dad and a hero. You’re our hero, sweetheart. Some days are harder (and longer) than others and I know that you work really hard, but if you’re ever feeling worn out, or over it, just remember how much we admire you. We love you and need you, always.
You walk through the door at the end of the day and I smile so brightly, because it doesn’t feel like home without you. I cannot imagine sleeping at night without you cuddled beside me, or waking up and not having you here to start each day with. It’s not easy being a mom, but it’s the best job I’ll ever have; there will be moments when I feel stressed, tired, and overwhelmed, but I’m always grateful for you. I want you to know that it takes a remarkable man to stand by the woman he loves during a pregnancy and after, because becoming a mom is life-altering. You know how to handle me on my best and my worst days and you’ve already proven to me that you would be there for me through anything. I need you to know how much that means to me and that I will be by your side through everything…sickness, money issues, and life changes. I’m your best friend and partner in crime, no matter what. I chose you and I will never change my mind.
I know I’m not perfect and sometimes I feel alone, even though I have you, the best daddy in the world. As a mom you tend to feel as though you’re on an island and you live by a different set of rules that don’t apply to others. I spend all day, everyday as a mama and I always put you and Greyson first, which is in my eyes, a huge part of being an amazing mom. I’m sorry for the moments when I am angry, stressed, or sad, and for the tears. Sometimes I just need to cry and let it out, because some days aren’t as easy and beautiful as the rest. I can’t always explain to you how I’m feeling, which I know can be frustrating. I’m sorry that I don’t always look in the mirror and feel perfect, but thank you for always making me feel pretty, loved, and sexy. Thank you for smacking my ass, holding my hand, and constantly smiling at me. Thank you for caring for me, my heart, and Greyson.
I know we will go through so much as parents, but one day it will be just us again, in a quiet house, looking back at our life together. It won’t always be perfect and easy, but I promise to love you through every life stage. I don’t want to go to bed angry or sad, because life is too short and unpredictable. I will never let you leave the house without kissing you and telling you how much I love you. I will never end a phone call or send a text message without expressing my love for you, because you’re the most important part of my life.
Years from now, when we are sitting on the couch in our once busy, noisy home, watching a movie and drinking wine, we will look around at our framed, family photos and think back to when it was just you, me, and Greyson and I’ll thank you again…I’ll thank you for being the best husband and father, for never leaving, and for making me a mom. I’ll thank you for giving me the greatest gifts and for creating a life with me.
I love you and we are so lucky to have you. I appreciate you and everything you do, everything you are, and everything you aren’t. You’ll always be our Superman.