I walked by you in my ripped jeans and cowgirl boots and that was all it took for everything to change. I could feel your eyes on me, but I pretended not to notice. I flipped my long hair over my shoulder and kept walking, but I couldn’t ignore you. You were something different and my heart knew before the rest of me that it was you. It’s crazy how I went from not knowing […]
When it hurts to hold on, let go. When you’ve been watering a dead flower for far too long, smile and put down the watering can. I promise it’ll be okay. Letting go can be painful, but it can also be healing. I’ve let go of toxic people, relationships, bad habits, and of unhappy work environments. Sometimes it’s the only choice we have left. When you’re feeling lost and uncertain about letting go of something, […]
You came into my life like a hurricane and I was a flower in desperate need of rain. You were there through the darkness, the fear, the uncertainty, but I was too scared and naive to jump. You’re all my heart ever talks about & I can’t quiet the whispers, but you’re just a thought. You’re not a reality and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss you. I miss the simple nights […]
Life can be scary and stressful, no doubt! But, with PTSD it just comes with the territory. When I was raped Sophomore year of high school, everything changed. I’ll remember the details of that night forever; the night ended with my hand punching my bathroom mirror, and a young, vulnerable me falling asleep with a bottle of something 90 proof. I couldn’t wrap my head around what had happened to me; so much of […]
Livvy bowed her head and took a shot of something strong. His deep voice played over and over again in her tangled mind. It was her first day alone, in a long time. She stumbled out of an Upper East Side bar, looking incredible. She could taste his lips and feel his strong grasp take a hold of her; her throat felt hot from the alcohol. So much had changed in her life, and in […]
Livvy opened her medicine cabinet and reached for a small pill bottle. Only one pale pill entered her mouth, but she craved them all. It was a depression she knew very well; an old friend. Outside her apartment window raindrops gathered on the glass. She stained her lips with berry colored lipstick, and smiled briefly at herself in the mirror. A smile could change an entire day, so she smiled often. She combed through her […]
If I could go back and tell myself what I know now, I’d be getting a mouthful. Life is scary and unpredictable, and nothing is permanent. I guess that’s what’s beautiful about life, but losing who you are and what you love is more painful than anything else. After I was sexually assaulted, everything changed (good and bad). I became stronger and I began living for myself, and doing what makes me happy, always. I […]
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